I now know why I dreamed about Steve Jobs the other night.
But first things first. We had our first gathering tonight of the Lansing Lee conference at Kanuga. Eben Alexander and Raymond Moody spoke. I was mostly in tears. Why it didn’t occur to me that this would be the case is beyond me. As I sat there, overflowing, and listening to them speak, I wondered why why why must I behave this way in public. I realized it’s because what the men were saying gave me such a profound sense of relief and gratitude. Relief to know that Adam is truly, as I perceive, still with me all the time, and gratitude that this is so. Deeply emotional. I could do without the crying though.
The doctors’ stories included reports from the transition to the afterlife, stories of the sanctity of those holding the hands of the dying as they passed away. (I was holding Adam’s hand as he passed away, but was so numb with shock, despair, grief, and fatigue, that I felt almost nothing at all. I wish I had been paying attention.) Both men spoke hopefully of the future coming-together of science and spirituality.
Dr. Moody, who began his career as a philosophy professor, reminded us that Plato and Aristotle spoke of these very experiences, and that many cultures have never abandoned the idea of an afterlife, like we have done in the so-called enlightened West. Why have we abandoned the spiritual for the scientific? Why do we insist they can’t live together?
Dr. Alexander spoke of his father, a neurosurgeon (at Wake), a scientist, but also a very devout man. He saw himself as God’s instrument rather than a man responsible for saving lives. Dr. Alexander pointed out that a neurosurgeon will say the brain is the seat of consciousness, but if you ask him how this works he can’t tell you. Because, he says, consciousness is spiritual and not of the material world. How scary. How reassuring. How wonderful.
I wish I could do a better job of reporting all that went on during tonight’s hour-long presentation. But it’s too much. I haven’t sorted it all out yet. Only bits and pieces are coming back to me now.
Oh, and about Steve Jobs. Well I’ve tried but find myself unable to describe why he appeared to me. I can understand it but don’t have the words to tell you. Let’s just say that Dr. Alexander mentioned him tonight, and that mention made my skin prickle and the hair stand up on my neck, knowing then that my dream was connecting me to, preparing me for, this conference in some way. At any rate, Dr. Alexander reported that Jobs’ sister was with him as he passed away, and that his last words were “Wow! Oh wow! Wow!!”